I was 12 once.

What did you want to be when you were younger?
I was to be a teacher.
Be married with 3 kids.

I knew school came first.
I made sure to get in to a good high school and university.
I sure did my mom proud when I did both.
Unfortunately never got a degree.

Got a job.
Had to pay back school loans and bills.
8yrs were lost.

27 now.
Not a teacher.
No boyfriend, fiancé, nor husband.
No kids.

I was 12 once.


Calm after the storm

Deep deep deep in my heart, I hurt.
I think about being with you forever. I think about being there for my family. I think about introducing you to my family.

I want you to realize how great of a woman I am.
To realize I'd be there for you no matter what.
To realize all I want to do is to make you happy.
To realize I'm all yours!

I've come to terms now.
I realized you will never open your heart to me.
I realized you will never open your eyes to the beauty within me.
I realized I will get nowhere with you.

But somehow there is still a glimmer of hope that I feel.
Could it be possible?
Is this your tactic

The uncertainty and curiosity are killing me slowly.

Im waiting for this storm to pass.
Hopefully the sun comes out soon.
Surely the right path will be clear and ready for me.



Everyone is searching for "their other half". Even when you're not looking, you're looking.

No one wants to be alone even when they want to be alone.

Loving someone and being loved are two different things. One can love someone wth all their heart and not care how that someone treats them. Just as one can be loved and not care how they treat the "lover".


You can't have one without the other.


Hand in hand.

You can be hurt falling in love.
You can be hurt while in love.
You can be hurt when out of love.
You can be hurt still in love.

When you choose to love you also agree to the terms of pain.

Whether in the beginning, the middle, the end or even after,  pain will come.

Personally I choose love.
Nothing like the feeling you get knowing someone loves you.